02.19.04 - ah, yes today.... i wrote in school so i'll just trnsfer it here.... :
12:15, in french class, saint conrad of piasomethingorother's day
i have decided i hate life, we are no longer aquaintances and i wish to be rid of her or perhaps it is fate i loathe, all i know is that everythign that can go wrong, goes wrong (thank you murphy) and it always goes wrong on me... i do not wish to be all "why me??" but WHY ME?!!?!?!?!? and by the way i now hate the males of our species... they all suck, whether they live here, in the next neighborhood (coughcough) or over a few roads (coughcoughcough) or in CA (coughcoughcoughcough... man i must be coming down with something, eh?) in other words (sings in fly me to the moon melody) i'm fed up.... i really dont want to go to geometry.. i hate it like i hate....males, well i hate it because of the immaturity of certain males... perhaps i'll skip it today... i doubt we'll be doing anything, and i can always get the work and notes from someone... h/o notes on er verbs....
12:15- trying to catch someones eye and tell them to take notes for me next hour....
1:15 ...didnt skip.... and i owe kristy an apology because you know shes all into reading this and she thinks i'm puttign her down but i wasnt aware of it but i will try not to..... so.... je regrette!!!!
1:16 mayeb this diary thing was a bad idea....Note To S....elf(teehee): f*ck you! it was a grand i dea
1:18 that reminds me of a poem
1:53 7 minutes until freedom from this mathish(?) hell!!!..... aha! no! it would be this geometric hell!!!! karney i am not mad at you... ok, i am but... uh... i am mad because perhaps i am a little overprotective of mel.... it is only because i love her....so you had better..... uh... straighten up!
2:28 .... sitting in on trombone trio practice.... not bad... solo and ensemble is tomorrow and iam quite the nervous one...
2:32 my jeans have taken on a pinkisg tint....argh!
now: ok karney is pised at me for being me.... well i cannot help that can i? w/e... he always scared me anyway.... uh... my lesson went ok.... i have to go get ready for church, i have to leave early so i can pick up mel..... I'm sorry Karney!!!! Please forgive me!!! i, uh..... like you a bit!!!! i must save all my "love" for someone who loves me back..... -sue